birthday... :( or :)

birthday is coming soon...in hours...but im in which mood??? this is the first time which we can gather to celeb my birthday...ya...on sat(20th)...but its in :( or :)....i also dunno...:) cz of frens coming over to celebrate with me...and :( is????who knows...only me...but i also cant give the real reason here...cz i dono...funny...i thought it shud be very happy...but not really though...many things happen since i start this relationship...most is frens problem...n cz of frens again, i feel regret...why i have to write it twice???regret of diff things shud say...mistake that i have done:

1. make a rush decision
2. nv think of the consequences
3. nv think it properly (suitable, the past, the present, the future)

i wan to end this b4 too late but lit thing in the heart telling me to think it over and over again...don make a rush decision again...one week had past...but y the feeling stil the same...cant make the decision...if i make the wrong one then i wil regret it and not only this small lit problem but many...many more wil come for sure....wat shud i do???

birthday wish???

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIONG!!!

regretting.....

happen to be happy when ppl care bout u...but its seem like a trap that u get into it deeply...at first u accept everything that are there...and din realise wat is wrong...i know wat i shud do and wat shud not but when happen to be like that u forgot everything that u know...its bcum more deeper when its too late...and i regret bout it....really regret bout it...can i ignore this o make a difference.....???if i ignore, i scare i wil regret at last...but if i make a difference in it, maybe i cant continue to have another one...can see that its going to be end soon...going....soon....