recently....

recently....getting more n more assmts need to do...it is ok if there is no PSM!!!!to think that i need to show the PSM to penyelia then wil frustrated...cz cant finish wat i shud finish....wat a shit....too harsh....haiz...everything look normal but act its in trouble...

wat i wan cannot get.....boring....

moody day....

started from graduation day....i went to meet my direct senior..n gave him a present which i have thought of since last sem...and succeed to give him...even its very simple but i think this is the only thing i can do...hoping to chat with him bout his work n everything but he look busy with his friends and rushing back to kl...so i jus followed ky to find his direct senior....and become camera girl!!sad!!not bout bcum camera girl but its not wat i thought wil happen...

following day...went to watch movie..midnight movie....its comedy movie not scary movie...the cinema full of laughter...

next day...which is today...before i went to class i make a cal to book my facial but its full...so din make it to have the appointment..n make a stupid mistake which i sound like angry when talking to the receptionist as i had make the appointment ytd but today she said cant give me cz full booking...haiz...very stupid...everything seem not good...dunno wat is the prob....hope tmr wil have good news for me...cheers.....:>

the stories...

"love is not important....this is wat i say b4...haha...its true but it cannot easily to forget wat u have went through...trying hard is useless...time is the only way can cure...."

"tis is the first time i feel very happy...the previous me always get into trouble in love..is it love very important???i would say yes if im the past...but now i would say nope...talking bout ppl acting immature but i think im the one who is immature....haha...mom is the best in the world...y shud i think bout the problems only and think negatively????feel like im very stupid...all this life is an experience to improve...talk bout ppl selfish y not talk bout urself....u din even once feel u r selfish????talk bout ppl very bad y don think bout urself whether u r bad o not....all this time jus look at ppl bad thing but not look at the good thing...but wat ppl wil see u???"

any more stories???can see that all the blogs are unhappy stories....y don put some colours on it???

this is life

this is life...jus wana share something...in the evening, going to class....sddly think about something...everything that we have done have their own consequences and lessons....after years in university, many things happen...some make u happy and some make u sad...but everything and overall, u get something from that...something which lead u to life...which make u understand why this kind of things will happen...and let u choose wat kind of life u wan..
so, wats the point here???jus think ourselves wat we wan to do and how tough u are to accept the consequences...lastly, do u regret with wat u have done....its important...

birthday... :( or :)

birthday is coming soon...in hours...but im in which mood??? this is the first time which we can gather to celeb my birthday...ya...on sat(20th)...but its in :( or :)....i also dunno...:) cz of frens coming over to celebrate with me...and :( is????who knows...only me...but i also cant give the real reason here...cz i dono...funny...i thought it shud be very happy...but not really though...many things happen since i start this relationship...most is frens problem...n cz of frens again, i feel regret...why i have to write it twice???regret of diff things shud say...mistake that i have done:

1. make a rush decision
2. nv think of the consequences
3. nv think it properly (suitable, the past, the present, the future)

i wan to end this b4 too late but lit thing in the heart telling me to think it over and over again...don make a rush decision again...one week had past...but y the feeling stil the same...cant make the decision...if i make the wrong one then i wil regret it and not only this small lit problem but many...many more wil come for sure....wat shud i do???

birthday wish???

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIONG!!!

regretting.....

happen to be happy when ppl care bout u...but its seem like a trap that u get into it deeply...at first u accept everything that are there...and din realise wat is wrong...i know wat i shud do and wat shud not but when happen to be like that u forgot everything that u know...its bcum more deeper when its too late...and i regret bout it....really regret bout it...can i ignore this o make a difference.....???if i ignore, i scare i wil regret at last...but if i make a difference in it, maybe i cant continue to have another one...can see that its going to be end soon...going....soon....

confusing.....

first is confession....next is getting together....is it continue til the end o wil end up break up?????
first u know u like him....next u c whether u love him....the result????
from the past til now ppl tend to find their true love...but is it everyone o some of them only???when u c him u know that u like him...n u don wan to hurt him...but when u din see him u wil think anything which come through to ur mind...is this true???is this jus a play???is love need to think til the future o time being....?
sometimes u can see the truth but sometimes u r blind....making decision without think further is a wrong act!for sure....cz u din think of the consequences...and the problems which cause by the decision...wat can u do now???is it jus don care bout the consequences n continue o stop it now?this is wat u need to think bout....making the right decision is hard....

unexpected.....

unexpected.....2nd of may.....the day of confession...when he went to spore i got the feeling of missing...n the miss which can make me feel tired...so end up...spilled it out...however, is this missing consider s love????i said no...n i told him that i like him but not love...after hours n a day, this is not the truth i think...jus realize it is more....more than i expected...but i cant tel him bout it...s i wan to make sure its working n real...hope this time i can make it...n he won disappoint me...good luck!!!n always miss u......seconds..minutes..hours..days...........

really boring....

really boring...everytime i have friends it end up like that...really don have true friends around me...what can do...jus be alone?this is wat i scare...where got anyone can live alone for the rest of their life....don think so...is there any solution with it?sick with this kind of life...thinking is this my matter?o theirs?
dai sei...this is wat i get cz leave someone behind n din really appreciate him in the beginning...thats y ppl said we have to appreciate ppl around us..don regret if u lose them...

past tense

ever since i have friends....it started...i have received comments on me...all also bad...the good one also from a very good friend...they think i like to be together with guys...my friends all guys..and said im a playgirl...i dono its true o not...but i think i din make any mistake...we have the right to have friends..i din even choose who wil be my friends...whoever know who i am n i know who he/she is...they are my friends...the difference is jus dono whether i close to him/her o not...i admit i have many admirers...din say im very pretty o not...jus they admire me...not my fault also..they said the way i reject them not cruel enough to let them give up...wan me to say 'please look at urself in front of the mirror.who r u for me to accept u'...is it the way i shud say?for me definitely no...cz this way wil cause me to have few friends and ppl wil say im not a good n polite girl...plus im not that kind of ppl...i jus said 'im sorry.for the time being im not going to have any relationship'...is this a wrong way?i know that i hope to have one who really can care bout me but jus don think i can accept...dono why i cant...really cant...so this make me really worse...jus bcz i din accept him but too close to him...til let ppl say im using him..is it wrong to have a friend who likes me?mean who ever like me then i shud stay away from him...is this right?i dono...but now look like its true..i really need to go away...they say i jus too good to guys til they like me...haha...i also don understand...means there is limit to treat guy...do they know that i treat girls also like that?i think no...no one wil know...and no one wil know wat n how i think...hope this can past very fast...really wan to faster graduate and go away from this...start a new life which i hope...