past tense

ever since i have friends....it started...i have received comments on me...all also bad...the good one also from a very good friend...they think i like to be together with guys...my friends all guys..and said im a playgirl...i dono its true o not...but i think i din make any mistake...we have the right to have friends..i din even choose who wil be my friends...whoever know who i am n i know who he/she is...they are my friends...the difference is jus dono whether i close to him/her o not...i admit i have many admirers...din say im very pretty o not...jus they admire me...not my fault also..they said the way i reject them not cruel enough to let them give up...wan me to say 'please look at urself in front of the mirror.who r u for me to accept u'...is it the way i shud say?for me definitely no...cz this way wil cause me to have few friends and ppl wil say im not a good n polite girl...plus im not that kind of ppl...i jus said 'im sorry.for the time being im not going to have any relationship'...is this a wrong way?i know that i hope to have one who really can care bout me but jus don think i can accept...dono why i cant...really cant...so this make me really worse...jus bcz i din accept him but too close to him...til let ppl say im using him..is it wrong to have a friend who likes me?mean who ever like me then i shud stay away from him...is this right?i dono...but now look like its true..i really need to go away...they say i jus too good to guys til they like me...haha...i also don understand...means there is limit to treat guy...do they know that i treat girls also like that?i think no...no one wil know...and no one wil know wat n how i think...hope this can past very fast...really wan to faster graduate and go away from this...start a new life which i hope...